dripping with anticipation

Soooooo today was weigh in and i really thought that with the day i had and the past few weigh ins i wasn't going to have a loss....
low and behold
2lbs :) oh yeah... I'll take it... so when i started the gym i was at 234.6 and I'm not at 219. awesome.....
that's almost 16lbs :) YAY so proud....
when we got to the gym we sat in the sauna for 15 minutes and then we worked out hard.... and then back in the sauna for 15 minutes before weigh in....
i believe in a previous post i said i felt that was cheating... I'm going to say this...sure i just dripped out some weight... i get that... that part is cheating but the heat makes my body feel so much better after working out so hard.
look at me I'm justifying it to myself....
well I've had a rough week... my favorite bank broke up (moved on) and i didn't get the job i applied for... but I'm ending it awesome... 2 pounds.....
i have three weeks left in this biggest loser competition... ultimately i would LOVE to lose 19lbs in the three weeks... do i think that's possible... i don't know but I'm going to give it a shot...

next biggest loser starts Oct 2nd and it's a mini....it's only 60 days sprint to the holidays... I'm very excited to started from the beginning with Sean...

this online weight loss tool said that if i lose 1-2lbs a week i will be able to hit my 100lbs goal by June 2011....that's awesome... I'm so ready...I'm also noticing a small victory... I'm not getting as winded anymore as i was....:) not to mention that my doc gave me an inhaler for my asthma that has come back...
yay...
well training on Sunday... oh yeah did i mention that Sean wants me to get boxing gloves so he can train me to box... do you see the first MMA fighter typing this? :) nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh more like roller derby....
i want to get in shape and than train for a run or event of some type and then start hard core training for roller derby......
come watch? :)

Grunting Gym Member

i have to share a funny little story to start this blog entry off....Today at the gym there was a guy lifting weights he had ear phones on and was totally dancing away to the music....he lifted a heavy set and grunted his way through it and when he was done he jumped up (eyes closed) and hooped and hollered until he opened his eyes and saw us standing there... smiled and said.. well yeah hell yeah ladies lol to funny....

So I'm back to feeling blue... I'm getting like zero results so obviously everyone jumps to the conclusion that i must be cheating on my meal plan... nope I'm not... ok then obviously I'm not working out as much as i say i am right? well yes this week i didn't work out as much because i was sick but I'm putting my all into it.
I'm feeling left out, abandoned, and given up on.

in talking to my very in shape father today he feels that my meal plan is actually causing me to gain because I'm not eating enough. he just read an article that states anything under 1500 calories for the day is more than likely doing damage because your body is going into save mode... i agree but i have been accused of not taking professional advice so i am still doing what I'm told to do...

everyone around me dropping weight and body fat % like it's going out of style. I'm still getting very discouraged. I really just want to work out alone and not be in competition with anyone because i feel like no matter what i never measure up to the ones i compete against....
i am feeling like a failure today :(

My clothing are not fitting better, I've stayed at the same weight for the past like 4 weeks, and my body fat % has not gone down... ;(

my legs and arms are like rocks though...

I'm not sure I'm going to do the next biggest loser.. honestly i feel like it's pushing me to do something drastic because I'm not getting the results like i should....:(