seriously would have felt better with a tutu

ok ok so tonight was the big tu tu wearing weigh in.... I'm a softy and didn't make him wear a tu tu however..... as Sean took the stage to do the tug o war and as he is tugging Zach says "I spoke to one of Sean's Clients earlier in the week and she expressed that Sean was either late or didn't show *crowd is super quiet so i yell at the top of my lungs...."he missed it" (Zach continues) and she said she was going to make him wear a TuTu at tug o war to make up for it *again crowd is quiet so i yell again at the top of my lungs "a pink one" (Zach continues) i myself was hoping for the rainbow one *looks at Sean* but man you aren't tall enough for them to see it...(i yell) i didn't bring it though i cut him some slack....(Zach says) that will teach all our trainers a lesson...never to bail on your client you never know what they will do to you...
Sean your a great sport(assuming your reading this) and I loved that you laughed through the whole thing....Thank you for being you and being wonderful....
I'm sad to say that Sean did not win the tug o war but we still love him anyways....
There were good numbers....Tiffany (i know you read this) you are doing so great....4lbs that's awesome, Christina you are doing awesome too i think it was 4lbs also right... You girls are wonderful... Monica-4lbs and Maria-2lb you two ladies are die hards... Everyone is doing awesome....
Congrats to all you ladies doing so awesome.......
on that note I'm so disappointed in myself...only lost .5 that's right .5 that's nothing and highly insignificant it's not even viable as i probably lost that peeing... (please remember i highly respect my trainer and love him to death) Sean looks at me and says...well we are just going to have to kick it up....my first thought is great now I'm going to be in the gym 7 days a week instead of 6 :( and I'm going to have to cut calories off my meal plan... great... why dint i just stop eating all together... I look at Nate and say... think I'd make myself sick if all i hate was protein shakes for two weeks? he rolls his eyes and says YES TARD....
at this point I'm still mad... Poor Sean so motivating and with a smile says are you that disappointed i said yes i am... he said OK then we will have to kick it up at notch to which i say in the most sarcastic and snotty tone great so that means 7 days not 6 he said no... he said we will have to take it to 90% in the work outs instead of 80 i said oh great so you can actually make me throw up this time(most of you don't know i came super close to puking on Wednesday after my workout) he said no i wont make you throw up...
I'm very disheartened and feel really low right now...
i said earlier I am on the giving up Verge....rest easy this doesn't mean I'm giving up... it just means that this is one of my lowest days....i got a lot of feed back on face book for this comment but the one that truly got me was from my wonderful sister in law (have i ever told you that i do truly love you like a big sister?)
when i read what she had to say i felt so selfish for giving in to my negativity and disappointment...She's absolutely right I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE, I JUST HAVE TO DO IT FOR RHYAN.....this brought me to tears (but for a good reason) for that Jess i say thank you and i love you.....(I'm pretty sure I've never told you that before and we haven't always been that "close" but i hope we can be closer :) you keep me going more than you know.. I need you to tell me stuff like that, to keep me going and get me back on track...
THANK YOU!
So I'm going to bed hungry because it's way to late to eat and I'm going to bed with a hurting heart because even though i fully agree with Jess's statement i am still a tad bit disappointed.
so recap.... to date I've lost 13lbs which is a FAR cry from 50 (my goal)...I've accepted the fact that i wont be hitting my goal weight for this biggest loser....the next weigh in is August 19th and then the final one on September 2nd...that's the big final weigh in... they have a party of sorts and then we start signing up for biggest loser again...yes i will be doing the next biggest loser, i believe it starts in October.
I'm off to Fork to find a vampire :) this weekend... Training session at 6pm on Sunday...wooohooooo.....
trying to keep my chin up....

Does that make me a gym cheater?

So today i had to have lab work done in Puyallup and instead of driving all the way up to Auburn to go to the gym we decided to stop by the Puyallup location to work out today.....

AWESOME.....that's the best way i can describe it... but yet doesn't seem quiet adequate.
Brad seriously....please turn Auburn into Puyallup...WOW... i loved it.

Different crowd all together and i think that has to do with the boxing ring (or lack there of) the machines were better the locker rooms were better the atmosphere was better..it was just BETTER....
I loved it...
so i have decided that on the weekends i will be working out in Puyallup except for Sunday's when i hit up Auburn to work out with Sean....

All you Vision Questers seriously think about checking out Puyallup it's awesome.....

ok off to try to sleep in this 80 degree weather....
night everyone.

pink cheeks couldn't even look him in the eyes lol

so i thought i would share my little pink cheek episode today.....
(i haven't mentioned yet but i pulled my groin muscle and it HURTS way bad)...I'm in this to win this so of course I'm still going to the gym...
Tiff and I bust out our workout schedule and realize that we aren't 100% sure what some of the things are...so we find Sean and ask him a few questions.... nice guy stops what he's doing to show us.... he see that I'm limping a little...
he stops and here is what transpires....(for those of you who know me, you will get a big kick out of this as i don't normally get embarrassed)
S-whats wrong with your leg? is it ok?
M-It's not my leg
S-ummm then are you faking the limp
M-nooooo *quiet voice* it's my groin muscle (Sean is a pretty shy guy and obviously gets embarrassed easily and blushes at the drop of a hat....of course he starts to smile and blush)
S-Oh i see
M-crap sorry crap....now I'm embarrassed(hold paper up in front of my face as i start to blush)
S-well just take it easy and only do the sitting bike so that you don't put any pressure on that area
M-*totally red* looks at Tiffany and say...man i never get embarrassed and now I'm mortified.
S-hahahahhhaahahahahaa ok have a good work out ladies...

ok so I'm totally embarrassed because i feel like i embarrassed him... to funny Tiffany got a huge kick out of it... i rarely get embarrassed but tonight was my turn....so to cover up my pink cheeks i bust out after our work out and make sure to tell him I'm bringing a camera to weigh in for TUTU day lol...he laughed :) it was a great workout
I love doing arms.... I lifted 60lbs(i think...Tiff if your reading please correct me if I'm wrong) my arms hurt a little and my GROIN HURTS........

burn it out in a TUTU

Sorry I've neglected my blog for the last couple of days....(we went camping with friends over the past weekend) flew back home on Sunday to do a training session....to our dismay our trainer forgot to write us in and left early.....WHAT?.....ok so I'm not super duper forgiving but i like the guy sooooooooo I'll just make him pay for his mistake....Tiffany and I con cocked a plan.... here's how it went down
m-Sean we know how you can make it up to us.
s-how?
m-at next weigh in(july29th) you will have to wear a tutu and announce to everyone why...
s-hahahahahahaha
m-is that a yes?
s-well i like you girls, you make me laugh soooo I'll think about it.
m-ok i will provide said tutu....take your pick pink or rainbow
*a few days pass*
today we had a training session with Sean...it was AWESOME i feel so good... i got my meal plans(for anyone reading this if you want some hella tasty recipes that are really good for you let me know and I'll post them....gotta keep you guys reading)
so Sean's says how are you ladies today? we both grumbled and said sore....he said where you sore at i say i'm not telling (it's my groin) and Tiffany says her calves..... he said ok..... well lets get started then. I said is it a tutu day? he just laughs....we do our workout...did i mention it was awesome? and when we are done we go back to schedule our next Wednesday session and we are talking(making fun of) Sean to Chris the sales guy(why you might ask....well since Sean stood us up Chris stepped in and trained us on Sunday...he's been a trainer for 11 years. it was a great workout as well)....Chris said oooohhhh Sean these girls were mad at you on Sunday.... Sean's says yeah they are making me pay for it.... I say yeah Sean tell Chris how you are paying for it.... Sean says they want me to wear a tutu to weigh in.....now... here is where i am mean :) Zach the head of biggest loser is standing there..... i say... yeah i would like him to wear a tutu his choice of pink or rainbow colored and announce to everyone why he is wearing a tutu... Zach looks at me and says...... DONE, at next weigh in it WILL happen......
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA poor Sean will never stand us up again :) gotta love me.... i will take pictures and i will post them :) he's such a good sport.....
So here is to a kick ass week of weight loss i have to make it worth it for him to wear a tutu...
oh by the way...i had my body fat measured and when i started if you remember i started at 46% body fat... I am now down to 41% :) awesome......
Night for now.

a dawning of a new trainer................

Today is July 15th....my 3rd weigh in.... I'll give you a recap....
I started this journey on June 3rd....at 233.7lbs.
my first weigh in was 9lbs....
second weigh in wasn't to good i gained 2lbs(horrible time with my old trainer)
third weigh in (today) 5lbs lost....
YAY....now weighing in at 221.00
that's a grand total of 12.7lbs lost....only 37.3 to go till my first goal.
it was an awesome high.....(Jessica.....the sauna that was my car helped me with 4.5lbs no joke....at 4pm at the doctor's office today i was 225.5)
I FEEL AMAZING RIGHT NOW.........I'm so motivated with my new trainer..... i told him for sure i was signing up for his team next time (starting in October)
I'm determined to get most of my weight off before we go to Disneyland for Rhyan's 6th birthday....
I want to thank everyone so far for their support i can't express to you how much it means to me... i am energized and feel great....i get my new meal plans on Sunday....YAY.....
well that's really all i have to say i guess....
Thank you doesn't seem to be the right words to say, but it's all i can say....

work out wheeze.....

well we had an awesome workout again today(we will be training 2x a week now until the end of competition)
today was a cardio boot camp.... ouchhhhhh.....
stairs,mountain climbers, laps with 25 in each hand, pushing the bag(no i don't mean Tiffany was pushing me lol), lifting the weight discs....hard but awesome...
I got a sneak peak at Tiffany's meal plan...AWESOME... so much variety i am loving it...
my arms hurt pretty bad today.... Tomorrow is weigh in and the scale said that i am up another pound...:( we shall see tomorrow.... i hope it's down at least 2 lbs... that would be awesome..better if it was like 25 down lol i know that's a tall order.
we got another friend to join the gym today YAY...she's kick ass and we are very excited to have her join us... we are going to start kickboxing class YAY....i am in search of some pink kick boxing gloves oh and i just rented the Dancing with the Stars work out videos :) very excited about it.
sooooo after my work out i have a horrible wheeze (good thing i go to the doc tomorrow) can it be that my athletic asthma (from when i played sports in high school) came back? yuck i hate inhalers... oh and I'm going to beg the doctor to please take me off my blood pressure pills... it's worth a shot right :)
wish me luck... i'll keep you guys posted...
YAY for tomorrow weigh in...i hope i do the new trainer proud...

not forgotten....

please forgive me i haven't posted in a while... well i took the weekend off and relaxed, hung out with my kid and got sun burnt.....
Today Tiffany and I hit the gym and started work out one that Sean gave us...wow it was hard but good hard... all upper body today....
WE DO NOT LIKE MEET IN THE MIDDLES....they suck....
we have a boot camp on Wednesday YAY....he said it's a cardio boot camp... eeekkk i'm scared...
today my arms feel like JELLO so that means tomorrow they will hurt :(
i wont be in the gym tomorrow as Rhyan has a follow up appointment for her surgery...
i have finished my liver cleanse and aside from *CENSORED.....TMI ALERT* pooping way more than normal i notice nothing different.....
i do think i'm getting smaller in the tummy area.... i hope anyways... well i'm off for now...
I'm still LOVING being on a new team... Sean is AWESOME....
Thursday is my first weigh in on Seans team...cross your fingers.

on a workout HIGH.....

Ok i think that today was the best day I've had at the gym thus far(even better than my 9lbs loss day)....today was my first official workout with my new trainer Sean....
AMAZING doesn't really sum it up... I feel so great and i feel so productive... it's a totally awesome feeling...
I never heard one discouraging word out of his mouth....It was more like your doing great, that's a good pace you have, keep up that good pace.... i respond much better to encouragement...
i think the most amazing part was when he handed me two 25lbs discs and said do a lap around the gym... when i came back he made me do a lap without....when i was done with that lap he said... That's what your going to lose...feel the difference... Oh yeah i feel the difference and it's amazing... (a quick high five)
i worked out hard i mean nasty red faced sweaty hard and i LOVED it... he pushes with encouragement....
I feel mega hyper right now...
I have a "bootcamp" style work out on Sunday at 7pm......so looking forward to it... I'm ready to shed this fat and weight. get my rock hard bod on :)
Sean has created a 5 day work out plan for me and it's amazing...no more 30-50 minutes of straight cardio.. THANK GOD....
To say that i am finally satisfied with my trainer i think is an understatement . I feel like i just won the lottery, a new meal plan, a 5 day work out plan designed for me, and a 24 hour link to my trainer i feel spoiled....
night ya'll I'm going to try to come down from my work out high :)

way to hot to work out.....

So yesterday wasn't to bad but today was brutal... way way to hot to work out... They don't have enough Fans in the gym for my taste...
Tiff and I didn't do our usual work out today because we were both to hot and uncomfortable...
Tomorrow is a new day with my new trainer... my first hour long session :) YAY....i can't wait I'm so excited.
the Chiropractor adjusted my feet and it HUUUUURRRRRRTTTTTT so much... he thinks i need Orthatics but honestly i can't afford them right now they will have to wait...end of story...

This one is just a short little blip today... I'm tired and I'm going to veg out... Nates home bbqing and i can't wait to eat... I'm starving.... i find that when i work out on an empty stomach that i appreciate my dinner much much more...

Stay Cool

Thus brings a new day.......

So lets see where did i leave off last?
oh right i just got the word on Friday about joining a new team... well Sat was very eventful.... I went to the gym at 8ish :)...went and did cardio...when i was done i went and talked to Sean to set up a meeting with him and get this rolling....again :)
We talked and i truly feel that he is the right trainer for me... very straight forward and you can tell that he LOVES his job.
I went home from the gym and had to make cupcakes for a client... We made Red White and Blue cupcakes...they turned out awesome (if you want to see them check out www.facebook.come/frostinghappens
they turned out great and it's funny because i find myself wanting to eat them less and less... (oh and Sean told me he was going to give me a weeks worth of meal plans YESSSSS)
Sunday came and i was at the gym at 7am :) i love it at that time in the morning because there aren't a lot of people there and the music is always up really loud i LOVE it....
It's also nice to see the owner there working out.. i don't exactly know how old he is but he's older than i am and he's in amazing shape.
Have i mentioned that i think he's an awesome guy for reading my email and addressing my concerns personally...I think that say a lot about him as a business owner and about how he cares about his gym member's satisfaction....Thanks again(if you are reading)
After i was done I dropped the cupcakes off with my client :) she was pleased and then i went home to rest and clean house...
I had to be back at the gym at 2 to meet with Sean to set up my program. We sat down and went over EVERYTHING... it was refreshing and eye opening to see how much i wasn't getting that i truly needed. He asked me what food i liked and didn't like and what i wanted to achieve and work on....We talked about what i wanted to get out of not only the biggest loser but my overall need or want. I told him that i would like to be in a single digit pair of pants and he said good go out and buy a pair right now... whatever kind of pants you want and hang them up where you can see them... look at them everyday and i guarantee you'll never lose sight of your over all goal.. i thought this was really a cool idea... so as soon as i can afford it I'm going to do just that :)
I feel totally supported by my trainer now which is wonderful.. he's totally focused which makes me feel focused... we have an upper body crash course(because we are a bit behind) on Wednesday :)
So, so far things are going good... he's going to be working up a meal plan for me for a full week and said that he's not going to be writing a dinner meal for me that he's going to be putting recipe's in for me to cook and try instead of just giving me a generic dinner plan.. i think this is exciting he's also going to make me a shopping list... how fantastic is that? i love it...
well i feel re-energized and ready to face this head on now... wish me luck (again)

YAY....it's a good good day.

I'm so excited to report that i OFFICIALLY have a new team :) I am now on Team Sean :)
I'm so super excited.... I guess that my letter to the Owner really made a dent... That's right my LETTER to the OWNER.... yeah Zach the man who runs biggest loser asked Sean to contact me as i was in need of a new team and I'm so glad he did....
However i will say i didn't answer the phone...Nate was going to the Chiro so i said will you stop at the desk and see what they wanted(i thought it was Sean Fooks)...he said sure i will :)
So he stopped at the desk and actually talked to the Sean that called me (Sean Westbrook)...he said oh I'm the Sean that called her. I was asked to call to see what her biggest loser goals and wants are and to see if we can assist her in anyway....
Nathan talked to him for about 45 minutes.... Nathan told him everything that has been going on the good and the bad and he was shocked to say the least... No one had told him why he was calling me other then to find out where my focus was....
Here's what he told my husband
"she's welcome to join my team..i will start completely over with her and comp her a free session for the one she used with Amber, i will give her new meal plans(notice the s) and if she is still wanting to the biggest loser i will help her achieve her goal"
AWESOME.... I'm so so so so so so so jazzed...I cannot wait to start fresh and have my first work out... It's a small team of 4 soon to be 5 and I'm perfectly ok with that... hell I'm so excited about that... that means he will have more time for me :)
F You Amber :)
I'll show you that i can do this without YOU.....
Here's to team Sean....