first let me apologize....this one will be long and this one will be very very angry.....with that said here is how my day went.....
i got the the gym and got adjusted by the Chiropractor...ran to get changed for our training session(Tiffany and I's) i pull my stuff out of my bag to find that my water bottle had leaked all over my work out clothing... my shorts namely... but i sucked it up and put my shorts on....not in the best of moods from having wet shorts i trudged along out of the locker room with Tiffany following me....Amber(the trainer) meets up with us and says so i talked to Zach today (the head biggest loser guy) and he said that if you are going to be training together without purchasing buddy session that you both have to sign off on your sessions...(inset a bunch of curse words in my head right now and i think my head might pop off I'm so pissed) i said well forget it I'm not going to give up one of my sessions for that. She said well your still getting trained and i said yeah that's not what we were offered... I looked at Tiff and said have fun doing your session can i have your keys I'm going to call Nate to come get me....she walked off to talk to the manager who said hang tight (I didn't follow Tiffany for fear that i would cuss someone at because at this point i have wet shorts and am super duper pissed)
for those of you who follow this blog you will know that over time I've felt increasingly let down by the program....a lot of things have not been followed through with thus far...
Tiffany comes back to me and says it's taken care of...we can work out together.. i said for just today though right (i read the guys lips that she was talking to) and she said yes just for today... so Amber standing there and smirking pissed me off more... i looked at her and said honestly that's not fair because that's not what you offered us. she said when i said in the beginning and then again last week... she said well i got in trouble for doing that... to which i said i really don't give a shit nor is that my problem... you offered us buddy training for our training we get through biggest loser and you should have to honor that... she looked at me with a snotty look on her face and said SORRY... but that's not going to happen... i looked at Tiffany and said I'm out of here I'm not training with her. that's fucked up and they should have to honor what she offered (in front of her... i told you that i was super duper angry)
i walked into the locker room and changed and left.
When Tiffany was done with her training session she text me and said where are you i said in the play area with Rhyan... she walked up to me and said i was told to give you a message and here it is
"i know that you don't like me and I've had other team members tell me that, so i talked to the GM and he is allowing you to change teams"
insert my brains exploding all over the play area because i seriously think my head popped off... So now I'm officially team less and have officially pissed 150 bucks away...
ok lets break it down.
if i do change teams because that stupid bitch doesn't want to work with me anymore then i will only get 2 training sessions with the new trainer for the remainder of the session(it ends Sept 2nd)
and i will be on a team that i know no one... none of my friends will be on it...
Nathan said screw it you were doing just fine without her before but now I'm mad because that means i lost out on 150 bucks which i didn't have in the first place...
So if i stay on her team and don't switch (which i have the option of) then she will treat me like crap because she's immature, i still only have 2 training sessions and some boot camps(provided i actually go)
I'm at the point of mad that I'm in tears and about to scream at someone... so did i say something to management no because whats to say at this point... i want my money back? they wont give it.... Oh btw did i tell you that she is talking to other people about me... and actually thinks they wont tell me?
seriously?
well i will admit that i fell off the meal plan waggon tonight.. I'm a feelings eater so yep had a really shitty dinner and loved every minute of it...
i feel very let down and very discouraged and very given up on... i feel like i have zero support and no where to turn...
i am truly on my own now...
So i guess i just keep doing what I'm doing... working out every day on my own and trying my hardest to lose this weight that now i feel is hopeless to lose.
Jess wanna share your cookies with me :) i could really use them right now.....
night ya'll
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
today is today
and i had to take a break...... didn't go to the gym today....
Tomorrow i have a personal training session with my trainer and then Thursday i have weigh in... Maybe i will post a picture....depends on if you guys want to see it or not lol....
I wont be in the gym on Friday as my baby is having ear surgery on Friday but depending on how she feels i will probably be in there on Sat AM....
Anyways....hope everyone has a good night keep up the hard work and keep reading...
M
Tomorrow i have a personal training session with my trainer and then Thursday i have weigh in... Maybe i will post a picture....depends on if you guys want to see it or not lol....
I wont be in the gym on Friday as my baby is having ear surgery on Friday but depending on how she feels i will probably be in there on Sat AM....
Anyways....hope everyone has a good night keep up the hard work and keep reading...
M
Monday, June 28, 2010
uppers and downers
today is a down day probably because I'm in so much pain from boot camp...
I'm back to hating my meal plan and I'm just bored with eating the same food every day...
why can't i have pizza once in a while and not have to kill myself in the gym the next day?
i feel like I'm giving up all the stuff i love... My kid isn't getting any sleep because I'm in the gym all the time and people who go to the gym less then me are losing more then me :( i feel like I'm killing myself at the gym for nothing....
even with my KICK ASS girls... i still feel blue... I feel like I'm failing and i hate that feeling....
I'm still bitter from the other day with the dick trainer.... I'm angry that my trainer doesn't care honestly care about us.... i just am mad that i keep gaining yet I'm doing everything like I'm suppose to be...
my body is getting older and it hurts more but not in a good way...Nathan says I'm building muscle but yeah ok that's fine but it's not the biggest muscle builder it's the biggest loser and right now I'm not getting smaller I'm getting heavier :(
I mean i wish you all could feel my rock hard legs that giggle a little and my rock hard arms that have some flying squirrels...
some days i feel very alone even though i know I'm not i just feel alone... no one truly understands how i feel.
Sorry this post isn't awww inspiring or happy go luck...
it's just a down day...
Rhyan's having ear surgery on Friday and so since i will have a 4 day weekend i'm going to start a cleanse :) wish me luck....
I'm back to hating my meal plan and I'm just bored with eating the same food every day...
why can't i have pizza once in a while and not have to kill myself in the gym the next day?
i feel like I'm giving up all the stuff i love... My kid isn't getting any sleep because I'm in the gym all the time and people who go to the gym less then me are losing more then me :( i feel like I'm killing myself at the gym for nothing....
even with my KICK ASS girls... i still feel blue... I feel like I'm failing and i hate that feeling....
I'm still bitter from the other day with the dick trainer.... I'm angry that my trainer doesn't care honestly care about us.... i just am mad that i keep gaining yet I'm doing everything like I'm suppose to be...
my body is getting older and it hurts more but not in a good way...Nathan says I'm building muscle but yeah ok that's fine but it's not the biggest muscle builder it's the biggest loser and right now I'm not getting smaller I'm getting heavier :(
I mean i wish you all could feel my rock hard legs that giggle a little and my rock hard arms that have some flying squirrels...
some days i feel very alone even though i know I'm not i just feel alone... no one truly understands how i feel.
Sorry this post isn't awww inspiring or happy go luck...
it's just a down day...
Rhyan's having ear surgery on Friday and so since i will have a 4 day weekend i'm going to start a cleanse :) wish me luck....
Sunday, June 27, 2010
ok a little behind......
Ok sorry I didn't post over the weekend...It was a busy weekend.
Friday Tiffany and I went to the gym for a training session(buddy training) with our trainer.....It was a good work out however the attitude was a little thick....
First off i think it must be a trainer thing because there is another trainer Ali(a guy) who was training in the same section that we were training in and he had the nerve to walk this trainee over by where we were training...no big deal... until he opened his mouth... he looked at me smirked and then looked at his trainee and said and i quote
"training too hard for you? I hear you can't hack it and threw up last week after boot camp" :( I was devastated and of course my trainer said NOTHING....oh wait scratch that she told me to cuss him out...ummm I'm mean as most of you know but as some of you may not know i get very quiet when I'm super duper mad and Tiffany said that i was the most quiet she has ever seen me in 3 years.... He proceeded to harass me and make smart ass comments the entire time we were working out... i was very crushed that a. a trainer made fun of me and b. my trainer didn't stick up for me. again i worked my ass off at a training session until i felt like throwing up... so Tiff and i went to get protein shakes (a peanut butter cup mmmmmm) after drinking that i felt much better.
we left the gym and headed to my house to make cupcakes for Keyta's baby shower......They turned out super cute. so needless to say it took forever and we didnt' finish until after midnight.
Then it was up at 6 to be at the gym by 7AM .......I think i need some Ginko because to my surprise Miss Christina was there waiting for us :) i had totally forgot that we planned to meet up :) it was an awesome surprise...She's awesome to work out with and keeps me motivated :)
We did cardio and then we went to the big boy section and lifted weights and had a great time.
Sunday is usually my day to take off but we had boot camp tonight....Thank god Christina's daughter is willing to keep Rhyan entertained or else i wouldn't be able to go....it was a great work out but hard for sure...Yes again i still finished boot camp feeling like i was going to barf but not as bad as last week.
i loved boot camp until the end.... Our last activity was doing planks....for those of you reading this that may not know what that is it looks like a push up but instead of going up and down you just stay in the middle on your elbow and keeping your butt level with your tummy... it's hard... we (my team) the ten of us were doing planks and not everyone was doing them how the trainer wanted and she actually started getting pissy with us... yelling and saying that we would be doing planks until everyone got their shit together and did them right. i did a plank for a minute and started to cry just when she said....
"oh i give up on you people, you at the biggest pains in the asses ever"
wow really? i mean i can appreciate the pushing you and training hard but come on... we are all there for a reason and it's not because we are skilled and a professional like you... get it most of us are heavy and over weight or at best out of shape (except for Monica lol she just ran a 13 mile marathon in 2 hours... you rock girly) but I'm over that i know that is just her being a you know what :)
Here comes the GOOD stuff..... now when we are on a weight loss program none of us want to gain...well i have gained... yep 3lbs since last Thursday....but here is where the good is... i did a body fat test today and i have lost almost 3% body fat so those lbs i have gained is more then likely muscle :) YAY....
it's a gain which sucks but at least it's an ok gain.... 3% body fat sounds so little but it's a huge accomplishment for me and I'm proud.
I just keep plugging away and reaching for me goal... I'm going to start a cleanse on Friday...did you know that at any given time you can have anywhere from 10-20lbs of undigested or written food in your intestines.... especially if you eat red meat... that's so nasty... So I'm going to cleanse it out of me for the next 28 days... that should help with my weight loss and my digestive issues :)
well I'm off to bed... for those of you interested i sort of got a new meal plan... she changed part of my meal plan... instead of tuna i now get to eat a chicken wrap :) i made one for dinner after boot camp and they are soooooooooooooooooooooooooo yummy :) so it's a nice change...
Friday Tiffany and I went to the gym for a training session(buddy training) with our trainer.....It was a good work out however the attitude was a little thick....
First off i think it must be a trainer thing because there is another trainer Ali(a guy) who was training in the same section that we were training in and he had the nerve to walk this trainee over by where we were training...no big deal... until he opened his mouth... he looked at me smirked and then looked at his trainee and said and i quote
"training too hard for you? I hear you can't hack it and threw up last week after boot camp" :( I was devastated and of course my trainer said NOTHING....oh wait scratch that she told me to cuss him out...ummm I'm mean as most of you know but as some of you may not know i get very quiet when I'm super duper mad and Tiffany said that i was the most quiet she has ever seen me in 3 years.... He proceeded to harass me and make smart ass comments the entire time we were working out... i was very crushed that a. a trainer made fun of me and b. my trainer didn't stick up for me. again i worked my ass off at a training session until i felt like throwing up... so Tiff and i went to get protein shakes (a peanut butter cup mmmmmm) after drinking that i felt much better.
we left the gym and headed to my house to make cupcakes for Keyta's baby shower......They turned out super cute. so needless to say it took forever and we didnt' finish until after midnight.
Then it was up at 6 to be at the gym by 7AM .......I think i need some Ginko because to my surprise Miss Christina was there waiting for us :) i had totally forgot that we planned to meet up :) it was an awesome surprise...She's awesome to work out with and keeps me motivated :)
We did cardio and then we went to the big boy section and lifted weights and had a great time.
Sunday is usually my day to take off but we had boot camp tonight....Thank god Christina's daughter is willing to keep Rhyan entertained or else i wouldn't be able to go....it was a great work out but hard for sure...Yes again i still finished boot camp feeling like i was going to barf but not as bad as last week.
i loved boot camp until the end.... Our last activity was doing planks....for those of you reading this that may not know what that is it looks like a push up but instead of going up and down you just stay in the middle on your elbow and keeping your butt level with your tummy... it's hard... we (my team) the ten of us were doing planks and not everyone was doing them how the trainer wanted and she actually started getting pissy with us... yelling and saying that we would be doing planks until everyone got their shit together and did them right. i did a plank for a minute and started to cry just when she said....
"oh i give up on you people, you at the biggest pains in the asses ever"
wow really? i mean i can appreciate the pushing you and training hard but come on... we are all there for a reason and it's not because we are skilled and a professional like you... get it most of us are heavy and over weight or at best out of shape (except for Monica lol she just ran a 13 mile marathon in 2 hours... you rock girly) but I'm over that i know that is just her being a you know what :)
Here comes the GOOD stuff..... now when we are on a weight loss program none of us want to gain...well i have gained... yep 3lbs since last Thursday....but here is where the good is... i did a body fat test today and i have lost almost 3% body fat so those lbs i have gained is more then likely muscle :) YAY....
it's a gain which sucks but at least it's an ok gain.... 3% body fat sounds so little but it's a huge accomplishment for me and I'm proud.
I just keep plugging away and reaching for me goal... I'm going to start a cleanse on Friday...did you know that at any given time you can have anywhere from 10-20lbs of undigested or written food in your intestines.... especially if you eat red meat... that's so nasty... So I'm going to cleanse it out of me for the next 28 days... that should help with my weight loss and my digestive issues :)
well I'm off to bed... for those of you interested i sort of got a new meal plan... she changed part of my meal plan... instead of tuna i now get to eat a chicken wrap :) i made one for dinner after boot camp and they are soooooooooooooooooooooooooo yummy :) so it's a nice change...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
rock hard legs oh yeah
well we meet again :) today is a much better day (except for a little irritation which i will explain)
Went to the gym, started off with seeing the Chiropractor(for those of you whom fallow me on facebook, i have decided not to take Rhyan to see him) got adjusted and he actually made me hurt today :(
then i was off to walk my butt off. with no more double chin left i guess my butt is next lol or my flying squirrels :)
walked for 30 minutes at a 10% at the max incline :) i love walking on the treadmill...
man was i soaked afterwards.....
here comes my irritation.....as you know I'm not having the best time with my trainer....I don't feel that she truly cares about her team members(well some of us anyways)
Today she walks up to us while we are on the treadmill and starts giving us "training" tips... this irritated me because A. she was standing around doing nothing but yet i couldn't get a training session until tomorrow with her, B.she doesn't really care enough to help me anything else such as giving me a new meal plan....almost 4 weeks of the same food is getting to me.
I think i have a minor underlining issue with her because in the beginning she was going to see what every one's schedule was like and then determine what day she would do boot camps... Nope that didn't happen she just chose to them at 6pm on Sunday evening....have i mentioned that the gym is at the Auburn Super Mall and i live in Tacoma? yeah it's not the quickest of drives... and my hubby works on Sunday nights and the gym daycare isn't open on Sunday nights....So what am i to do with Rhyan?
Seriously and then when i say I'm not sure i can make it she gives me attitude?
really?
this 9lbs i have lost has been courtesy of me...not her... I've had one training with her and one boot camp....all the other days I've been in the gym was me...
oh well....by the way they hung up our fat pictures in the hall at the gym for EVERYONE to see :(
ok night night readers :)
Went to the gym, started off with seeing the Chiropractor(for those of you whom fallow me on facebook, i have decided not to take Rhyan to see him) got adjusted and he actually made me hurt today :(
then i was off to walk my butt off. with no more double chin left i guess my butt is next lol or my flying squirrels :)
walked for 30 minutes at a 10% at the max incline :) i love walking on the treadmill...
man was i soaked afterwards.....
here comes my irritation.....as you know I'm not having the best time with my trainer....I don't feel that she truly cares about her team members(well some of us anyways)
Today she walks up to us while we are on the treadmill and starts giving us "training" tips... this irritated me because A. she was standing around doing nothing but yet i couldn't get a training session until tomorrow with her, B.she doesn't really care enough to help me anything else such as giving me a new meal plan....almost 4 weeks of the same food is getting to me.
I think i have a minor underlining issue with her because in the beginning she was going to see what every one's schedule was like and then determine what day she would do boot camps... Nope that didn't happen she just chose to them at 6pm on Sunday evening....have i mentioned that the gym is at the Auburn Super Mall and i live in Tacoma? yeah it's not the quickest of drives... and my hubby works on Sunday nights and the gym daycare isn't open on Sunday nights....So what am i to do with Rhyan?
Seriously and then when i say I'm not sure i can make it she gives me attitude?
really?
this 9lbs i have lost has been courtesy of me...not her... I've had one training with her and one boot camp....all the other days I've been in the gym was me...
oh well....by the way they hung up our fat pictures in the hall at the gym for EVERYONE to see :(
ok night night readers :)
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
a new day.....ok Drama Queen.
ok so first things first.... Sorry that yesterday i was a tad bit of a drama queen... i know (for those of you that know me) shocking right hahahahahaha..............Yesterday wasn't totally about the gym....I had a few other issues i was dealing with....I just blamed the gym because it was easy
ok... So yes i went to the gym today and worked out with Miss Christina :) love her....she's so fun to work out with and she's an AWESOME listener.....she lets me bitch at her and really listens :) (i know your reading this... so Thank you!)
In just three short weeks this program has changed so much for me....I am no longer "competing", I'm also no longer a "team".....sometimes the way we begin things is much different from how we continue to do things....Not that this is a bad thing it's just sometimes the way things roll out... our perspectives change.
I am happy to report that I can now walk on the treadmill for 45 minutes straight and keep my heart rate at a level beat and i dont hyperventilate...this is very exciting to me.
I have also decided to do the next biggest loser with a male trainer to get a perspective on the difference.
i'm still fighting................I hope that my posts are at least somewhat inspiring... I've been told they are funny so thats good... Honestly i just want to be able to tell people what i'm really going through.
I'm a gal who has to lose 100lbs or more to be able to stick around on this earth for my darling daughter....I'm inspired by her on a daily basis and so thankful that she has inspired my wonderful husband to work out also....
good all my readers :)
ok... So yes i went to the gym today and worked out with Miss Christina :) love her....she's so fun to work out with and she's an AWESOME listener.....she lets me bitch at her and really listens :) (i know your reading this... so Thank you!)
In just three short weeks this program has changed so much for me....I am no longer "competing", I'm also no longer a "team".....sometimes the way we begin things is much different from how we continue to do things....Not that this is a bad thing it's just sometimes the way things roll out... our perspectives change.
I am happy to report that I can now walk on the treadmill for 45 minutes straight and keep my heart rate at a level beat and i dont hyperventilate...this is very exciting to me.
I have also decided to do the next biggest loser with a male trainer to get a perspective on the difference.
i'm still fighting................I hope that my posts are at least somewhat inspiring... I've been told they are funny so thats good... Honestly i just want to be able to tell people what i'm really going through.
I'm a gal who has to lose 100lbs or more to be able to stick around on this earth for my darling daughter....I'm inspired by her on a daily basis and so thankful that she has inspired my wonderful husband to work out also....
good all my readers :)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
the lul
So today it feels like the world is crashing down on me..after my tragic barfing episode at boot camp i took Monday off(my legs hurt so bad and i really didn't feel so hot)...I called in and canceled my private session(my trainer was none too happy and actually got some attitude about it.) WHATEVER....i'm kind of over her... she's not super motivating....
So i'm in a lul... I worked out alone today which sucked ass(well except for the ten minutes i walked with Monica :) )
I'm having one of those days where it feels like everyone and everything is out to get me.
Sorry this is a short and not to inspiring post... maybe i will have more to report tomorrow....i'm going to make tiffany do pulls ups with me in the big boy section :)
think happy thoughts for me i feel like i'm cracking today....
So i'm in a lul... I worked out alone today which sucked ass(well except for the ten minutes i walked with Monica :) )
I'm having one of those days where it feels like everyone and everything is out to get me.
Sorry this is a short and not to inspiring post... maybe i will have more to report tomorrow....i'm going to make tiffany do pulls ups with me in the big boy section :)
think happy thoughts for me i feel like i'm cracking today....
Sunday, June 20, 2010
BOOT CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today is Sunday June 20th (Father's Day....Happy Father's Dad for any of my Dad friends reading this)
We arrived home from camping around 3ish so we got the stuff unloaded and made a bite to eat got a shower and decided that YES i was going to attend our first boot camp...
it would have been super easy for me to just stay home but i decided i needed to go.
I made the trek and was early so i decided to do some cardio while i waited... Amber(my trainer) saw me doing cardio and was pleased that i made it.
8 of us showed up out of like 15 i think... COME ON TEAM SERIOUSLY?
we started off doing arms doing weights that looks like a cow bell, doing the strap pull ups, doing push ups, all while rotating...then we did more activities(I'm not sure what they are lol) there was sprints, sled pulls(i like these), the HUGE tire, bear crawls, lunges, lunges with waits (this is when it started to go down hill for me)
after these two rounds of activities i could tell i was getting dizzy, tired, heart was up......Amber looked at me and said "you ok, you gonna throw up?" i said yep i think i just might...
then comes the kicker....ABS....yep ABS. (This is when i started to cry, i had no control over it)
sit ups, planks, sideways sit ups, and v sits.... after we were done i sat on the matt and the room was spinning, Christina brought me water and i just sat there...after everyone left i managed to get up and shake the whole way to the locker room.... i was perched up against the locker when i just hit me... i ran to the bathroom stall and yep you guessed it... tossed my cookies... and cried....
this was really a humiliating day.... of course my lovely friend Christina stayed with me and got me cold rags and walked me to my car....
wanna know the worst part besides my embarrassed ego?
the scale said i gained 6lbs since Thursday....how the hell is that possible... Amber said we will figure it out tomorrow (Monday i have a private session with Amber)
hopefully tomorrow will be better...
even though i had a rough evening I'm proud of myself for actually going to boot camp and making it through the entire boot camp...
by the way i flipped that huge tire with a partner about 20 times.... :)
night night everyone...I'm taking my bruised ego to bed.
We arrived home from camping around 3ish so we got the stuff unloaded and made a bite to eat got a shower and decided that YES i was going to attend our first boot camp...
it would have been super easy for me to just stay home but i decided i needed to go.
I made the trek and was early so i decided to do some cardio while i waited... Amber(my trainer) saw me doing cardio and was pleased that i made it.
8 of us showed up out of like 15 i think... COME ON TEAM SERIOUSLY?
we started off doing arms doing weights that looks like a cow bell, doing the strap pull ups, doing push ups, all while rotating...then we did more activities(I'm not sure what they are lol) there was sprints, sled pulls(i like these), the HUGE tire, bear crawls, lunges, lunges with waits (this is when it started to go down hill for me)
after these two rounds of activities i could tell i was getting dizzy, tired, heart was up......Amber looked at me and said "you ok, you gonna throw up?" i said yep i think i just might...
then comes the kicker....ABS....yep ABS. (This is when i started to cry, i had no control over it)
sit ups, planks, sideways sit ups, and v sits.... after we were done i sat on the matt and the room was spinning, Christina brought me water and i just sat there...after everyone left i managed to get up and shake the whole way to the locker room.... i was perched up against the locker when i just hit me... i ran to the bathroom stall and yep you guessed it... tossed my cookies... and cried....
this was really a humiliating day.... of course my lovely friend Christina stayed with me and got me cold rags and walked me to my car....
wanna know the worst part besides my embarrassed ego?
the scale said i gained 6lbs since Thursday....how the hell is that possible... Amber said we will figure it out tomorrow (Monday i have a private session with Amber)
hopefully tomorrow will be better...
even though i had a rough evening I'm proud of myself for actually going to boot camp and making it through the entire boot camp...
by the way i flipped that huge tire with a partner about 20 times.... :)
night night everyone...I'm taking my bruised ego to bed.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
June 17th......2nd weigh in.....
June 17th....Today was our two week weigh in.....
*Drum roll please*
9
That's right....i have lost 9lbs in the first two weeks... I'm so back on track now and so re-energized it's a wonderful feeling....
our team was the first called up to weigh....we all walk up and get in line and sure enough they use the microphone to tell EVERYONE how much you lost... i was the last in line and i was scared that it was going to be like 1 or none...to my wonderful surprise 9 amazing lbs of hard work sweat and determination.....
I feel like a million bucks right now...
So boot camp is on Sunday at 6pm and then i have a private training session on Monday at 6...Very exciting..I'm getting a new meal plan....awesome I'm getting a little tired of tuna :)
I'm going camping this weekend so i wont be posting till after boot camp...wish me luck....i hope boot camp doesn't kill me.....
*Drum roll please*
9
That's right....i have lost 9lbs in the first two weeks... I'm so back on track now and so re-energized it's a wonderful feeling....
our team was the first called up to weigh....we all walk up and get in line and sure enough they use the microphone to tell EVERYONE how much you lost... i was the last in line and i was scared that it was going to be like 1 or none...to my wonderful surprise 9 amazing lbs of hard work sweat and determination.....
I feel like a million bucks right now...
So boot camp is on Sunday at 6pm and then i have a private training session on Monday at 6...Very exciting..I'm getting a new meal plan....awesome I'm getting a little tired of tuna :)
I'm going camping this weekend so i wont be posting till after boot camp...wish me luck....i hope boot camp doesn't kill me.....
Monday, June 14, 2010
discourage setting in.....
So in a few days(Thursday) we have our first seminar and first weight in after the kick off party...it's been almost two weeks....So far I'm getting a little discouraged. All I have been doing is the bikes,the elliptical or the treadmill.....I feel like we were offered all of these things when we joined the Biggest Loser but so far we haven't seen or received any of them. I know that the weight loss is not something that can be promised that's up to me however what was promised to me is the following
-weekly team work out sessions
-a meal plan(so far i have gotten 1 day worth so seriously for three weeks I've been eating the same thing EVERY DAY)
-4 private training sessions(the trainer has not scheduled them yet)
i feel like my 150.00 that i paid to join the biggest loser has so far been a waste...i know the weight loss is worth it but if this is the program and it's not going to deliver the other items it promises then i think it's not worth it. I can go to the gym (and aside from last weekend) I've been in it almost every day and i can workout myself but isn't that why i signed up for biggest loser because i needed the extra help?
I hate to rant and rave but i really do feel a little let down by the program thus far.....
I have decided that I'm going to try the spin cycle class :) it looks super duper hard but i am confident that i can make it through.....the trainer for the class is an older man maybe in his 60's but he's tough and he is motivating... i like that....
I'm happy to report that even though i didn't watch what i ate last weekend(two parties for Rhyan) i only gained .8lbs.... which I'm sure i worked off with the 45 minutes of cardio i did tonight.
I'm taking tomorrow off to go and visit a dear friend who is in town with her youngest daughter seeing specialists at children's hospital for seizures. then it's back to the gym Wednesday and Thursday and then I'm taking the weekend off to go camping and hiking.....
so today when i stepped on the scale i was 230.8.... I'm happy to report that Nathan has also lost 4lbs...
Ok I'm off to surf the net and go to bed....
by the way i think the adjustments are working... i stopped taking my heart burn meds a week ago and yes i have a little heart burn but it's no where near has hot or painful as it use to be untreated... so i believe the adjustments are working :) YAY
-weekly team work out sessions
-a meal plan(so far i have gotten 1 day worth so seriously for three weeks I've been eating the same thing EVERY DAY)
-4 private training sessions(the trainer has not scheduled them yet)
i feel like my 150.00 that i paid to join the biggest loser has so far been a waste...i know the weight loss is worth it but if this is the program and it's not going to deliver the other items it promises then i think it's not worth it. I can go to the gym (and aside from last weekend) I've been in it almost every day and i can workout myself but isn't that why i signed up for biggest loser because i needed the extra help?
I hate to rant and rave but i really do feel a little let down by the program thus far.....
I have decided that I'm going to try the spin cycle class :) it looks super duper hard but i am confident that i can make it through.....the trainer for the class is an older man maybe in his 60's but he's tough and he is motivating... i like that....
I'm happy to report that even though i didn't watch what i ate last weekend(two parties for Rhyan) i only gained .8lbs.... which I'm sure i worked off with the 45 minutes of cardio i did tonight.
I'm taking tomorrow off to go and visit a dear friend who is in town with her youngest daughter seeing specialists at children's hospital for seizures. then it's back to the gym Wednesday and Thursday and then I'm taking the weekend off to go camping and hiking.....
so today when i stepped on the scale i was 230.8.... I'm happy to report that Nathan has also lost 4lbs...
Ok I'm off to surf the net and go to bed....
by the way i think the adjustments are working... i stopped taking my heart burn meds a week ago and yes i have a little heart burn but it's no where near has hot or painful as it use to be untreated... so i believe the adjustments are working :) YAY
Thursday, June 10, 2010
officially one week.......
Well i have found that i actually enjoy working out...i love doing cardio the best...sick right :)
Well today i stepped on the scale (reminder when i started Biggest Loser i weighed in at 233.7) i weighed 230.6 YAY... i feel really accomplished thus far.... funny fact though....I lose weight in my feet first and then my hands and then my face :)
I'm so thankful every day that Nathan has decided to join me in this journey we have also gotten our friend James to sign up and go to the gym with us :) YAY...
ok this is a short one tonight i'm sleepy and have to go to bed...
i'll post more tomorrow
Well today i stepped on the scale (reminder when i started Biggest Loser i weighed in at 233.7) i weighed 230.6 YAY... i feel really accomplished thus far.... funny fact though....I lose weight in my feet first and then my hands and then my face :)
I'm so thankful every day that Nathan has decided to join me in this journey we have also gotten our friend James to sign up and go to the gym with us :) YAY...
ok this is a short one tonight i'm sleepy and have to go to bed...
i'll post more tomorrow
Monday, June 7, 2010
Vision Quest Chiropractic......AMAZING.....
So my gym also has a Chiropractic office inside of it....OMG amazing... they adjusted my neck and the headach i had when i walked in was gone immediatly...it was AWESOME>
The Chiropractor said that he can cure my heart burn and assist with my high blood pressure....wow thats awesome. Oh yeah and my carpul tunnel and get my thyroid back in line to assist with my weight loss...
I'm so jazzed. i go back tomorrow :)
So now for the juicey stuff :) so i started this journey "officially on the 3rd... weighing in at 233(and some change lol) when i signed up at the gym i was 234.7lbs....So today when i stepped on the scale at the gym i was weighing in at 231 even.... YAY... little victories are the best...
I got Just Dance for the WII and Oh how funny and fun... Rhyan was cracking me while she was dancing with me. it's a good work out though it made me totally sweat and i saw some of the same moved as the ZUMBA class so maybe if i learn some of the moves i can take the class again and actually keep up?
The Chiropractor said that he can cure my heart burn and assist with my high blood pressure....wow thats awesome. Oh yeah and my carpul tunnel and get my thyroid back in line to assist with my weight loss...
I'm so jazzed. i go back tomorrow :)
So now for the juicey stuff :) so i started this journey "officially on the 3rd... weighing in at 233(and some change lol) when i signed up at the gym i was 234.7lbs....So today when i stepped on the scale at the gym i was weighing in at 231 even.... YAY... little victories are the best...
I got Just Dance for the WII and Oh how funny and fun... Rhyan was cracking me while she was dancing with me. it's a good work out though it made me totally sweat and i saw some of the same moved as the ZUMBA class so maybe if i learn some of the moves i can take the class again and actually keep up?
Friday, June 4, 2010
Meal Plan.....
Sorry I decided to post another one since I'm high on workout goodness and Nates snoring.....*rolls eyes*
so I thought I would tell you about my meal plan....
For Breakfast I get
1 medium banana
1 cup of cheerios
1 cup of fat free milk(not my fav but it works)
1 light yogart (I prefer raspberry)
First Snack
20 grapes (I prefer purple or red)
Lunch
12 baby carrots
8 low sodium saltines
1 can of tuna
3 TBLSP of fat free mayo
a few little pickles cut up to mix in tuna and mayo
1 can of ready made campbells veggie soup
Second Snack
Graham Crackers
2 TBLSP of fat free peanut butter
Dinner
5 oz baked chicken
1 spear of broccili
1 small sweet potatoe baked in the skin
1 small salad with 2 TBLSP of light italian dressing
Last Snack
1 cup light cottage cheese
1 pear
it's a lot of food and honestly at first I had a really hard time eating it all...I can't wait at 3 to 5 lbs lost i get to get a new one.. Right now this is what i'm eating every day until i get another set :)
more to come :) going to bed now.
so I thought I would tell you about my meal plan....
For Breakfast I get
1 medium banana
1 cup of cheerios
1 cup of fat free milk(not my fav but it works)
1 light yogart (I prefer raspberry)
First Snack
20 grapes (I prefer purple or red)
Lunch
12 baby carrots
8 low sodium saltines
1 can of tuna
3 TBLSP of fat free mayo
a few little pickles cut up to mix in tuna and mayo
1 can of ready made campbells veggie soup
Second Snack
Graham Crackers
2 TBLSP of fat free peanut butter
Dinner
5 oz baked chicken
1 spear of broccili
1 small sweet potatoe baked in the skin
1 small salad with 2 TBLSP of light italian dressing
Last Snack
1 cup light cottage cheese
1 pear
it's a lot of food and honestly at first I had a really hard time eating it all...I can't wait at 3 to 5 lbs lost i get to get a new one.. Right now this is what i'm eating every day until i get another set :)
more to come :) going to bed now.
zumba.......wow.....
ok People when they say that dancing to work out is fun they must have been smoking something...don't get me wrong it was fun and I sweat my butt off....the trainer was very into it but I had a hard time following the steps sometimes. I was told that if i go more often i will get the hang of it... I hope so. I sure was drenched afterwards.. I will say this... I absolutely need to stretch no matter what....ok here's how it went down.
I got to the gym at 5pm to get x-rays done on my spine as I'm going to start seeing the Chiropractor to get my thyroid back in order. After I was done with that I went up to the women only section and walked on the treadmill at a 13% incline for 35 minutes. then I sat on a broken bike lol and peddled the last ten minutes until Zumba started....Zumba was an HOUR....man I was mushy after....I obviously lead with my right side of my body because the calf muscle in my right leg kept getting a charlie horse. I have no idea why since i drink enough water to drowned a fish hahahahaha.
My trainer did say today that she was so pleased and impressed that i have been in the gym almost every single day since i signed up. that made me feel so awesome...
I'm proud of myself today because i tried something new...I really want to try the spin cycle class next..
I have also gotten Nathan to sign up and go to the gym he did almost two hours of cardio today.. I'm very proud of him :)
another day closer to my goal...I'm totally open to work out suggestions as well...I got Just Dance for the WII i was told it's an awesome work out. I want to try Flirty Girl( i know that sounds lame right?)
ok I'm off to bed.. I'm getting up at 6:30 to go work out at the gym...I'm actually really enjoying working out(i think this sounds funny coming from a fat chick)
let me know if you want to work out with me.....My trainer "Amber" has free month long passes and two free training sessions.. it's only 19 a month and that includes all classes and one training a month...:)
they are also open 24 hours a day :)
I got to the gym at 5pm to get x-rays done on my spine as I'm going to start seeing the Chiropractor to get my thyroid back in order. After I was done with that I went up to the women only section and walked on the treadmill at a 13% incline for 35 minutes. then I sat on a broken bike lol and peddled the last ten minutes until Zumba started....Zumba was an HOUR....man I was mushy after....I obviously lead with my right side of my body because the calf muscle in my right leg kept getting a charlie horse. I have no idea why since i drink enough water to drowned a fish hahahahaha.
My trainer did say today that she was so pleased and impressed that i have been in the gym almost every single day since i signed up. that made me feel so awesome...
I'm proud of myself today because i tried something new...I really want to try the spin cycle class next..
I have also gotten Nathan to sign up and go to the gym he did almost two hours of cardio today.. I'm very proud of him :)
another day closer to my goal...I'm totally open to work out suggestions as well...I got Just Dance for the WII i was told it's an awesome work out. I want to try Flirty Girl( i know that sounds lame right?)
ok I'm off to bed.. I'm getting up at 6:30 to go work out at the gym...I'm actually really enjoying working out(i think this sounds funny coming from a fat chick)
let me know if you want to work out with me.....My trainer "Amber" has free month long passes and two free training sessions.. it's only 19 a month and that includes all classes and one training a month...:)
they are also open 24 hours a day :)
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Let the games begin......
(this picture was taken a few months ago.....)Today June 3rd is the day I start to change my life.....
I joined the Biggest Loser at Vision Quest in Auburn.
My trainers name is Amber(however i can't afford to do anymore sessions beyond the initial 3)
We have a pretty big team and I'm sad to report that just about everyone has signed up to do extra sessions with Amber.....yeah i still can't afford it....
Today was the Kick Off Party....We had two special guests in attendance. Suzi and Matt Hoover from Season 2 of the (real) biggest loser..OMG they were awesome and so inspiring. Could she seriously be any more cute :) I'm super excited they are going to attend one of my teams boot camps :) YAY....*side note....I was and am a tad bit star struck*
We have to set goals and I have set mine at 50lbs for this session. My over all goal is 110lbs. It's a lot but it is achievable. This biggest loser session is 90 days and to be honest right now I feel more alone then I ever have.
I have hit a minor mental road block tonight as I am feeling very alone. I feel very overwhelmed and unsure. Chalk this up to me being needy as some have pointed out.
My spouse has signed up for my gym also so I'm sure he will be going to work out with me on the weekends and Thursday's and Friday's :)
because I'm at such a disadvantage being unable to pay for extra sessions i am going to try to go 5 days a week. Monday, Wednesday, Thursday*biggest loser day*, Friday (for zumba class) and Saturday. So hopefully going 5 days a week and doing the team boot camps will help me achieve this 50lbs I have to lose.
Now I'm sure you are all (if anyone is reading this at all) wonderful just how much i weigh....well at first weigh in I ring in at 233.4lbs on my tiny frame that leaves me at 46% body fat....wow... i just admitted that out loud... but this is all part of my journey and i want you all to share it with me. Maybe this is how i will get my support.
I will try to post a blog every day and will absolutely post a blog every other Thursday after weight in (June 17,July 1,15,29,August 12,26,and the final on September 2nd)
Did i mention that the winner takes home 500 bucks and a start at better health?
Wish me luck....
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